Tomorrow morning, Brooklyn has an appointment with the pediatric pulmonologist. They are going to do a scope to see whether her breathing problems are tracheomalacia or something more serious that could be mimicking tracheomalacia. We are hoping it is tracheomalacia because that is a condition that she would outgrow by her first birthday. Her pediatrician actually did not talk to us much about what the other possibilities are, and I have avoided scaring myself further by trying to look it up on the internet.
So please join me in hoping and praying for the best.
I am worried about tomorrow because the scope involves them putting a camera up her nose and down through her airway. At one point, Brooklyn's pediatrician had mentioned that to do the scope, "They might not even have to sedate her." Almost everyone else I have told about the procedure has assured me that they will sedate Brooklyn. While the thought of sedating a 10-pound baby kind of freaks me out, I really kind of hope that's what they do. It would be better than watching her fight the procedure, and screaming because she is scared and probably in pain. Yeah. Letting her sleep through it sounds like the lesser of two evils.
Since I have absolutely no vacation or sick time left at work, I have to go to work for like 3 hours in the morning and then meet my hubby and Brooklyn at the pulmonologist's office. I am already kind of freaking out about the whole thing...so I really doubt I'll get much accomplished at work. I am just not wanting them to hurt Brooklyn or scare her, and I'm a little worried about what the doctors could find during the test. I really don't think they are going to find anything terrible..I just don't have a bad feeling about the whole thing...but you never know. After all, there is enough of a problem to have to do the scope in the first place, right?
Please keep Brooklyn in your prayers and thoughts tomorrow. And maybe me too, if you think about it, because I'm tired of being a stressed out bundle of nerves.