Post-partum depression is:
-Feeling like you could never be a good enough mother for this beautiful little angel. That you can never do anything right and that your baby will always deserve a better mommy than you.
-Feeling guilty because you should be happier right now than you have ever been. And you're so thankful, and so in love with your baby, and so amazed by her...but not happy. Why?????
-Being afraid that you will never, ever feel normal again. You've become a shell of yourself.
-Crying yourself to sleep at night because you are so, so sad and hopeless...but you're not sure exactly why.
-Having so much anxiety about every little thing. Ending up so overwhelmed that you just can't do anything.
-Keeping how you feel a secret from nearly everyone...only your husband, OB, and lactation consultant know about your "diagnosis."
-Putting on a show around your family and friends so they'll think you're okay. This makes you even more exhausted than you already constantly feel.
-Being afraid that when people hear the words "post-partum depression" they will automatically judge you and think that you don't love your baby. Or take her from you because they think you are the next Andrea Yates.
-Being so ashamed to talk about it that you hesitate to even post about it on your blog because of what total strangers will think of you.
There. I've put it out there now.