Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Leaving my mark

She is a nearly-blank slate, this beautiful little girl.
She is starting to make a few marks of her own.

someone has to show her how.
by the words I speak,
by the way I say them,
by the way I touch her,
by the way I treat others,
by telling her how proud of her I am,
by telling her what a great job she is doing,
what a beautiful, wonderful, smart, lovely little girl she is,
and that I will love her more than anything, no matter what,

by giving her hugs,
and time,
I will draw on the slate that is my amazing daughter.

I want her to have the pieces that are missing from my own work of art.
I will tell her the things that I wanted to be told so badly.
I know how important these words are to a little girl...
And to a girl who is not so little anymore.

I have to be careful that my lines are drawn perfectly straight,
that my curves are perfectly rounded.
I hold my breath and pray
that I don't make any mistakes.
Because I can't erase any marks I make on this canvas.
There is no room for error with a responsibility of this magnitude.

I want her to love everything about the beautiful painting that she becomes,
and know that every mark I ever made
was with complete and utter love
for everything that she is
and will become.


Sam said...

I've missed you!

Sarah said...

Oh, I've missed your posts...so glad you're back..for good now, right? Beautiful post Amanda.

Miss K said...

Welcome back!!!

Jennifer W. said...

Beautiful. And yes, please start writing again!

Cibele said...

oh, what a gorgeous post. Glad to hear from you here again

Eva said...

I'm so emotionated about this post.
i think that only mothers can fully understand the meaning of these words.

Andrea-Memories As A Mom said...

Fantastic post!!!

Beth said...

beautiful post! hope you post again soon.... i've missed you!

Liz said...

Sure do miss seeing blog posts. :(

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